CAN I HOLD THIS AS UR PROMISE

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mark_collins5710: babe
mark_collins5710: am here
dee: hi
dee: have u finish everything
mark_collins5710: am here
mark_collins5710: i will read later
mark_collins5710: what is wrong babe?
dee: that what should I asked you.. whats wrong?
dee: I need you to be honest with me
mark_collins5710: what did i do babe?
dee: who am I to u baby?
mark_collins5710: huh?
mark_collins5710: my sayang of course
dee: thats a simple question
dee: do u really care bout me that much
dee: I dont have any intention to be dramatic
dee: but I just need to ask u somethings
mark_collins5710: babe am sorry
mark_collins5710: i have been busy with exam lately
mark_collins5710: am sorry if i hurt you
dee: is not that ,,I can understand about that
dee: its sumthing else
mark_collins5710: what?
dee: can u read this so u will understand how I felt about u
dee: http://ndutzstillsurvive.blogspot.com/2012/12/spaces-between-ur-fingers.html
dee: after u finish u buzz me
mark_collins5710: what's that?
mark_collins5710: tell me first
dee: its what I wrote about my feeling for u
mark_collins5710: wooooow touching
mark_collins5710: babe
mark_collins5710: i miss u too
mark_collins5710: but i was just busy lately
mark_collins5710: am sorry
dee: I know u r busy I dont mind with that
dee: after u back from ur journey from ur brother place
dee: I know sumthing is wrong
dee: u know how I fell about u ,, what makes me cry is this A promise u made, ur promise I hold..- Mark Collins..
dee: is this ring a bell to u
dee: I read it on sum1 page
dee: tell me what should I felt or thought about it?
mark_collins5710: that's the girl i met after we lost contact
mark_collins5710: so she has been there for me
mark_collins5710: through hard times
mark_collins5710: yes i know i have to tell this
mark_collins5710: but not so early now
dee: can not
dee: u have to tell me
dee: I dont want be the last one know about this
dee: while I'm hoping too much
mark_collins5710: am sorry about that,but we both have our past,
mark_collins5710: she has been so nice to me
dee: we both have our past
mark_collins5710: and we don't have any problem
dee: but not present
dee: how come I expect to be ur tommorow while I know ur not expecting me to be
mark_collins5710: we need time to make this work
mark_collins5710: am not saying anything bad
mark_collins5710: and i can't lie to u
mark_collins5710: i expect u to understand,
mark_collins5710: am sorry for not telling u earlier,i thought it's not the right time
dee: I know ,, thats why I told u I dont wana be so dramatic..but I'm lost dont know where should I stand.. if I dont on ur future ,, dont be so nice to me
mark_collins5710: i didn't say u r not in my future
mark_collins5710: all am saying is we just need time to make this work,and together with understanding
mark_collins5710: we will make it
mark_collins5710: but i can't lie about her
mark_collins5710: yes she exist
mark_collins5710: but i need time to handle all this
dee: until what ?
dee: I dont want to be an option
dee: when its comes for u to decide .. I'll fall to deep
dee: even now I've been on that situation
mark_collins5710: babe
mark_collins5710: listen to me
mark_collins5710: i know how you feel
mark_collins5710: but lying is not good
mark_collins5710: i don't lie
mark_collins5710: to those i love
mark_collins5710: just understand that i love u
mark_collins5710: but concerning her,i need you know it's just a matter of time
mark_collins5710: and u need to understand me
mark_collins5710: i met her when we lost contact
mark_collins5710: and she has not done me any wrong
mark_collins5710: just that i found again
mark_collins5710: so we need a little time to adjust this
mark_collins5710: ok
dee: i want to be selfish I want you just for me.. now I just feel like I dont fullfill ur expectation
dee: if u need a time I"ll give u time ..I'll give u a space .. u just can not be that selfish .. to have us both..even one of us must hurt ,.. so be it .. but at least we know from the start... not after we drown so deep
dee: I know u are the man who keep ur promises .. u have made ur promise to her... so what else I can expect babe
dee:
mark_collins5710: hmmmm..can you give me time to handle this okay?
dee: okay
mark_collins5710: and promise me u will understand and give me time please
dee: I never want to push u babe
mark_collins5710: am not saying we will not be together anymore,all i ask of u is understanding
dee: what should I do.. should I start life my life without u
dee: this is dilematic
mark_collins5710: i didn't say that
dee: then what
dee: i didnt heard anything from u in a day
dee: i got so worried
mark_collins5710: nope that one is school babe
mark_collins5710: i have been busy with exam
dee: u busy with ur tv and ur games.. and dont have time for me I got upset
mark_collins5710: beside she is not here in Malaysia
mark_collins5710: she is in singapore
dee:
mark_collins5710: so need to think that way
dee:
mark_collins5710: am sorry just exam
mark_collins5710: i never neglect u
dee: i know
dee: u always spent time for call me
dee: sorry I've been like this.. but I just cant stand
mark_collins5710: it's okay sayang
mark_collins5710: i understand
mark_collins5710: just know i have always love u,and i will continue to love u
dee: I love u too
dee: just whatever happen dont hide anything for me
dee: just be honest with even it hurts me
mark_collins5710: yes i know
mark_collins5710: i don't lie
mark_collins5710: to those i love
dee: i know u dont lie.. ur just not telling
dee: \
mark_collins5710: nmmmm am sorry about that
mark_collins5710: smile la
mark_collins5710: don't keep ur face like that
dee: to whow i should smile?
mark_collins5710: me la
dee: i cant see u
dee: all I see is a shadow
mark_collins5710: really?
mark_collins5710: am in the living room
mark_collins5710: u r hanging too
mark_collins5710: i can't see clearly
dee: great then
dee: u cant se my swolen eyes
mark_collins5710: OMG
mark_collins5710: please babe
mark_collins5710: stop crying
mark_collins5710: i never meant to hurt u
mark_collins5710: it's just the exam
dee: i dont want to cry
dee: the tears running it self
dee: Ive told to stop can not
mark_collins5710: please la
mark_collins5710: stop crying
dee: if I can stop .. i stop
mark_collins5710: hmmmmm
mark_collins5710:
dee: im better now at least I relieve .. talk bout this
mark_collins5710: good
mark_collins5710: am sorry sayang
dee: dont call me sayang I'm mad at u
dee: NOW
mark_collins5710: hahahahahaha
mark_collins5710: lol
mark_collins5710: please don't
dee: so I should be happy
mark_collins5710: sorry
mark_collins5710: have u eaten?
dee: not in the mood
mark_collins5710: please eat sayang
dee: I'll eat
mark_collins5710: okay babe
mark_collins5710: please eat
dee: tommorow
mark_collins5710: huh?
dee: besok
mark_collins5710: besok?
dee: tomrw
mark_collins5710: nope babe
mark_collins5710: eat today
mark_collins5710: NOW
dee: rite now I just not need no food
mark_collins5710: but u have to eat
dee: go read u still exam tmrw
dee: not playing games
mark_collins5710: yeah i do
dee: pinokio
mark_collins5710: lol
mark_collins5710: need to relax my brain
dee: hmmm
dee: so am I
mark_collins5710: just had a fight with my sayang
dee: another pinokio lines
mark_collins5710: hhahahahahahaha
dee: I know u've been playing since we've chat
mark_collins5710: if not in will write babe babe babe in my exam sheet
dee: don't try to make me smile
dee: i'm still mad at u
mark_collins5710: please babe
mark_collins5710: am trying to be romantic here
dee: ur not romantic person
mark_collins5710: hhahahah seriously??
dee: damn serious
mark_collins5710: i thought i was...
mark_collins5710: OMG
mark_collins5710: so i need to learn it then
dee: no gerald  u r not
dee: but coffee and the water does
dee: thats romantic
mark_collins5710: lol
mark_collins5710: what else do u need for me to be
mark_collins5710: ????
dee: I need you to need me
dee: I want u call me not just because its an obligation
dee: but simply just becos u miss me
mark_collins5710: OKAY
mark_collins5710: OKAY
mark_collins5710: OKAY
mark_collins5710: i will
mark_collins5710: i will try to be my best
mark_collins5710: cos i don't want to be unromantic
dee: somehow all of my doubt suddenly goes away
mark_collins5710: okay sayang
mark_collins5710: opps u said i shouldn't call u that
mark_collins5710: but it's always in my mouth
dee: I don't need in ur mouth .. I need that in you heart
dee: your heart
mark_collins5710: but if i don't have it in my heart,i can't say it
dee: truth?
mark_collins5710: yes truth
dee: cross ur heart
mark_collins5710: yes cross on my heart
dee: so no one cant enter besides me..
mark_collins5710:
mark_collins5710: yes
mark_collins5710: babe