holaaa 2014

holaaa

it's been a while I don't post my corny notes, one of my best friend remind me to post and write something in my blog . 
I used to corny post when I'm in love or when I'm in despair and worse in broken heartened mode. don't know how I'm so good at 
curhatan hati seorang kekasih yg ditinggal pergi * lalumatibunuhdiri #translateThat

but this time I don't want post anything related to my something called bored...

Love relationShit

I just want to share some moment I passed with some great life mates I had .. u can called them my friend .. my best friend .. my soulmate .. friend of  mine .. or anything
After last may 2012 janji dan salim sama dewa zeus 
ga akan bikin travelwish or things to do ..
aku berkhianat pada dewaku .. 
last time I check *bongkarfotopesbuk

Movember 2012 * ingkar janji pertamaku 

early Jan 2013 I've checkin in Bukit Bintang *ingkar janji keduaku

february 2013 I've catch sunrise and sunset at Cambodia  *ingkar janji ketigaku

 

April 2013 I'm catching school headmaster sign at titiwangsa KL & lost at bukit jalil *ingkar janji kesekian kalix

Movember 2013 I've  *mulai ga bisa pegang janji

KL is my second home town *udah kek tkw yg pulang lebaran ke indo setelah kerja ngumpulin duit setahunan .. 
ke KL setelah jadi TKW dan ngumpulin duit setahunan di balikpapan.

And Start Now 2014 .. aku mulai beteman sama

 Dewa Poseidon 

beach .. sea breeze .. sunburn.. snorkel gear *is my new favorite things 

sunburn can heal even takes time *bacaLamaaabetuul

but see heaven on the sea is a soul changing

many moment create .. many laughter capture .. lots of love spread

 Even I break promises on thing for sure

I'll never quit being a traveler

ANOTHER WOUND

Wanna posted  2012 year in review but realize nothing much biggest moment from this past year 
besides meeting U papabear...

2012 .. I fall .. I Raise.. fall again , I do make mistake I lived tru it for the rest of my life.. 
there's no regret , there's nothing to early 
always believe everything happen for a reason.. 
if meeting u is another way to have another breaking heart and lived through it ..so be it ...

I just don't get it why this happen again.. supposed to be I skip my karma long time ago. I never hurt everyone but why I always end up to be the one who got hurt.

I've learned to put myself back together in this past 3 years .. should I take another 3 years to wash away this pain.. Yes I'm pain now .. its no longer like an elephant sit on my chest but hundreds elephants step on my heart...

 posted this thing only gonna makes me change again to stupidest girl on earth .. but it's a wake up call

I just said everything happen for a reason .. and the Qoutes I just got from my beloved , dearest friend /soulmate/or whatever I named u ...

 " he won his price " 

just like see a light in the end of a tunnel ...

now its getting harder ,,

Relationship are harder now because 
conversations become texting
arguments became phone calls
feeling became status updates 

and missing becomes unanswered calls ,,,

IS HARDER THAN IT LOOKS 

 

IN DOUBT

Should be all the moment just happen ring a bell to me ..  I never gonna be his tomorrow ...A wake up call...
all the hopes , the dreams and the wish vanish by a phone rings and a DELETED Picture .. and a MIDNITE VISIT

it's normal thing when u sharing moment with your special ones and want to capture all the moment and share it to the world. show them how happy and how proud you are.but what the hell happen is
   I got DELETED 

#therighttimetosayDAMN

not even how gentlemen he could be or how he confess that u r his future wife , it wont give u a chance to be his tomorrow .

I really shed a tear because once again I made a terrible mistake and it feel not good at all . *it feels like an elephant sit on ur chest

I choose from the first time to let him knocking at my door and messing around with my heart

and the worst I cant express how I feel inside

all I want to do now is screaming on his face and asked ..

Who am I to you ??

is it another KARMA for me? how come ? Do I hurt sum1 before ?

My nothing happen MODE ON #NOW ... and guess what it reflect back at me!!!

the Bday

few days before my b'day .. I had a dream to run a big party ..where my workmate, friends, n my family could have some fun...

with b'day cake, some baloons, lot n lots of food n my favorite liquor..



but the fact is..

I turn into cake..






but kinda miss these day ...
become the centre of attention from my lovely fam..

got some present of course.. ga banyak seeh .. tapi adalah..

harusx klo birthday party ada ritual " make a wish "

I thought I'm gonna miss that.. coz no b'day cake

but............. late nite

my guys pick me up for celebrated my bday..
it's 12 pass 1 second..@ the car on the way home , they were screaming @ me.. happy birthday.. selamat ulang tahun..selamat hari burung....



panca ( my bestfriend for live ) ... sit next to me.. lit a little flame from his macthes.... "ga ada birthday cake tapi tiup lilin mesti.. ayo make a wish "

my wish is simple.......

I wish for always feel a happy moment like this

I wish for the rest of my live surround with great people like them

the bday bash was not glamourous as I dream of.. but I'm Happy in my special day I'm surrounded by all of the poeple who cares bout me so much in their own way... even in the odd way just like my friend did....

I could not ask for anything more..

those moment are enough for me..

I'M BLESSED

AND I'M GRATEFUL FOR THAT