ANOTHER WOUND

Wanna posted  2012 year in review but realize nothing much biggest moment from this past year 
besides meeting U papabear...

2012 .. I fall .. I Raise.. fall again , I do make mistake I lived tru it for the rest of my life.. 
there's no regret , there's nothing to early 
always believe everything happen for a reason.. 
if meeting u is another way to have another breaking heart and lived through it ..so be it ...

I just don't get it why this happen again.. supposed to be I skip my karma long time ago. I never hurt everyone but why I always end up to be the one who got hurt.

I've learned to put myself back together in this past 3 years .. should I take another 3 years to wash away this pain.. Yes I'm pain now .. its no longer like an elephant sit on my chest but hundreds elephants step on my heart...

 posted this thing only gonna makes me change again to stupidest girl on earth .. but it's a wake up call

I just said everything happen for a reason .. and the Qoutes I just got from my beloved , dearest friend /soulmate/or whatever I named u ...

 " he won his price " 

just like see a light in the end of a tunnel ...

another story

PETIR
by Dian Ekarini on Tuesday, October 12, 2010 at 12:11am

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Karena kita satu.
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the comment stop here.....never thought this poems to be this dramatic...
posted just keep remind me how good the poems infected me and hopes can touch others too
tapi semuax jadi berubah setelah komen2 itu muncul.......haliii

people who has touched my life

Life is like a book u can write anything on it , u’r experience , u’r sadness ,u’r happiness

it’s your call wat u want 2 write

all the bitter things I've through this lately , n all the nice moment I've had & all the people who’s resposible for it.. he..3x

in life u will meet & have sumone who’s not just became sum1 who fill your page but sum1 who really meant sumthing 2 u

I had sum of them

let’s start with “my 2 guys” chen” & neo

they were my guys , my friends for life, they both are the most magnificent people I adore , they both help me through my highschool life .. they were the cured when i'm in pain.. chen2 will always had his own way to make me smile...

( the most valuable time in my whole life ) they both teach me how to get along.

& we've been frend 4 almost 13 years till now ( it’s quite long rite??) & u know ! “they never change” they were still the same person from the fisrt time i knew them.

” al”

I love this guys ,, he’s not just became my best frend, but also a brother & a soulmate 4 me ..

he’s the first guy who show me the world , teach me to appreciate life & he’s the one who made me comfortable with my self

I'm just merely humans & sumtime I'm trying too hard 2b sum1 else , but he’s the one who show mE , there’s nothing wrong 2b

” JUST ME”

he’s the fist guy who teach me “what love is” , even till now i really dunno wat the hell is that………….

” onyon “

wow there’s so much page bout him in my life bout this guy .

he’s the most deceitfull person i ever know

he came to my life , took everything i had , then left without notice . he’s the one who succed turn me out 2b the stupied girl in this whole world

I wasted my youthfull life with him , & i feel sorry 4 that ..

but the positive thing is i know how strong i could be , I know how’s 2 handle all the hearts breaks all these time

got a shut in a heart

do you know why i hate march so much.........

becoz march always bring up a bad memoir for me .. n it's all becoz of him

march is his besday..march is our anniversary..
march is the time I become a real woman for the first time..
march is propose moment...aaarrrggh..... to much **that's why march alwys sentimental 4 me...( rasa mual ..!!!)

I made promise to myself I'll get over this , becoz i believe I was stronger..

I WISH I'm Stronger
I WISH I can Move ON
I WISH I'm never fall for onyon

I wish I can move ahead just like u did .... leave our past

I wish there's a big button tag " RESET" for my heart and

I wish I can delete U.. just like u erased me from ur life

I did.. i do move ... i think...but I think twice cos what happen few days ago..

Wake up early one morning ,,
dengan semangat membuncah.. went to my office ... just like usual .. gave my work mates a big close up smile n say haloo.... " slamat pagi all"....
( berharap senyum ini meresap kedlam hati)

n then,, goes the conversation

them= mba dian ,, dah denger gosip belum,...
( biasa klo bis weekend,, sharing gosip yg update dari mslh century smpe manohara,,, )
me= gosip paan nee?
them=soal onyon!
me=s*** belum tuh ,, knp? ( nda urus mode on) tp g tw fake pa ga.... ??
them=onyon cuti lho skrg ada dsini..
me= oh ya dah tau..
them= tau juga ga,, klo dia cuti ke makasar.. pergi ma calon istrix,, ( they even mention her name)
me=oh ya udah tau,, dah cerita dia (**dlem hati "mang ada ??? dia cerita ??) amnesia kale aku ya...kapan ?? siapa lagi cwe itu??"
them= iya mba ktx mreka mw nikah lho
me= baguslah.. akhirx... ( ** di dalem... asal ga sm si Dia ) gpp lah...
them=mang ga ngom sm mba dian kah..?
me= ga tuh ... lagian LIKE I CARE" PWIKIRKANKAH"

back to my seat,,, turn on my compi,,, buka email.. turn out I shed a tears.... damn... it's still hurt....
that early conversation really ruin my whole days................

had to find the cure,, but dont know how ,, who can help me... shit.. i must be crazy that time... i've known that i'm ready for shit things like that ,, But the fact is,,,, I'm HURT....

i hurt badly enough .. to regret everything again..n.. again...
dont want to go home ... i need sumthing to distract my thought bout those word...
even an expensive spa treatment wont heal me that time....

finally i decide to sent him some text...
" maaf telat but ..happy besday" wish u have all best in live ( hope im one of it,, ) ..text sent

sms diterima........
" maksih dee " boleh aq telp aku kangen denger suaramu.. ( damn..........)

" telp aja "............text sent

my phone rings..... take a deep breathe... it his number..
haloo............n then the conversation goes like all of the phone call we always did,,, we talk.. we laugh...

n then the call ends....

just feel like a thousand stone lifted from my chest...

LEGA.... n then ,, the tears inside my heart stop.....

bingung.......... kaya yoyo hatiku.. one second.. it's breaking ..next minute.. I'm Totally fine


thats why .. i keep questioning...

bungul..bungul....di botein lagi sm lelex.... hahaha................

klo dah gini jd kangen "mas al"

he must have the right word to say to help me found my path...