Sometimes I wonder where you are now? what you are doing? 
There are so many questions swirling around in my mind, begging to be answered

like an elephant sitting on my chest .. hurt to the bone ... that's how I describe how I felt cos

"missing u" 

I don't have to remember all the big felling u make me.. all the small little things about U really made me to have a crush on U.
the way u smile when u look at me ,, 
the way u dance and sing to ur song while u were drivin ...
the way u scratch ur head and eyes when you too tired but don't want to sleep .. 
the cheering sound when ur fav team score a goal ..
the foot rub u do when we watching soccer in the couch together .. 
the patient u have when u r on the urge and I can't do anything about it...
I like when u said how sexy I'm when I wake up in the morning..
I like how u spoiled me with the breakfast in bed ..
I like how u bring me some water for bath.. 
I like to watch u dress up everyday ... 
I like to see u busy with the groceries and be a chef for dinner ... 
see ....
I have so many little things I loved... found in U.. 
do not need special day to describe how I miss and love u in my way .. 
do not wedding ring or vow to be always with U .. Ur kindness is more than enough 
I warned U before stop being so nice and stop makes me fall for U if ur not intended to catch me falling 
but u keep doin it and makes me fall deeper .

I used to like every little things u have 
I used to love every moment we shared

I do care about U ... love U in my own way ..

happy Valentine my papabear

happy fucklentine megatron.

now its getting harder ,,

Relationship are harder now because 
conversations become texting
arguments became phone calls
feeling became status updates 

and missing becomes unanswered calls ,,,

IS HARDER THAN IT LOOKS 

 

Love should come first

“There is a desire within each of us,
in the deep center of ourselves
that we call our heart.
We were born with it,
it is never completely satisfied,
and it never dies.
We are often unaware of it,
but it is always awake.

It is the Human desire for Love.
Every person in this Earth yearns to love,
to be loved, to know love.
Our true identity, our reason for being
is to be found in this desire.

Love is the "why" of life,
why we are functioning at all.
I am convinced
it is the fundamental energy
of the human spirit.
the fuel on which we run,
the wellspring of our vitality.

And grace,
which is the flowing,
creative activity, of love itself,
is what makes all goodness possible.

Love should come first,
it should be the beginning of,
and the reason for everything.”
― Gerald G. May, Living in Love

MR RIGHT NOW....

In my live i've learn lot bout a guy... for years i've friend wid them , work wid them , end UP attach wid them .. learn their misterious act n their behavior, still can't figure it right where a perfect guy should exist.

the good one are so hard to find .............

all we neeed is a simple guy rite ?? not like a computer , hard to figure out n dunno why they never had enough memory ???? too easily forget about things. (*birthday..aniversary.. are a sample )

SO FAR ... all I can found is a guy who can't make an eye contact ... helooOOo "breast N' butt dont have an eye" *sigh....

my friend said

" man are like snowstorm.. "

you never know when it's coming , how many inches you'll get n how long he will last (^_^)
n she always told me to find good guy is like have a good parking spot n a good tile .. if you lay them properly the first time , you can walk over them for years.....

for me all i need is a guy with a half of brain so he wont that smart enough...
and like a best coffee,, used to be rich ,,warm n keep me wake up all night ..wkwkwkw

Q!#(&UT*EY*)#&$_(*q#et_#)(%$&(#_($&#!)&$(*)#................. WAKE ...UP .....

DAY DREAMIN....
one thing for sure why so hard for us to find a sensitive, caring , royal , n good looking guy??? cos most of time already had a

" boyfriend "

I THINK THAT
I SHALL NEVER SEE

a guy who's perfect just for me
a guy who's bright & doesn't bore me
who has a good taste to adore me
one who will make my inside tingle
who is ( dare I hope it!)

SINGLE

and whom my lip should lock & sent my hormones into shock
a man who patient, doesn't ware when he found out I had a brain
yet who flatered n charmed

FAITHFULL...

a lot of money ..couldn't hurt.. ^^

if you know Mr right like this please fell free to call me day or nite

AnD if he doesn't came along ... I'll consider

Mr Wrong

I love u

apa sih yg mesti aku lakukan untuk membuktikannya

kalo aku kasih kmu hatiku dah semua isinya ...

would that be enough?

would you be understand ?

i'll gave it all.. but it's empty now...

just be you..

year after year we see ourselves changes and the wolrd changes around us
we will never gonna be the same for day to day
we learn so much in live,. and we experience life in so many ways

sometimes lives chalange us in

unexpected difficulties

but i'm sure we can learn from the worst ,,n makes us stronger than yesterday


these few years I forced my self become sumONE I do not recognized..
i'm not me...not the real me

my life's not always perfect ..i've through my worst day.. cloudy days... REALLY PAIN IN THE ASS

i've done become sum1

fake

.... ( the most thing i hate )

I wanNa be free............ i wanNa be "JUST ME"

ENJOY & SHARE THE BETTER MOMENT .. IT DOESN'T HAVE 2 BE PERFECT OR 2 BE SPECIAL