I JUST GIVE UP

Don't mess with my life anymore .. I had ENOUGH

I reached a point in my life where I no longer necessary for me to questioning or wondering where are you now and your story .. when I said 

I give Up ,... I mean it 

I'm good I'm one in million .. and I'm not an option .. just move on with ur life .

and tell you fucking fiance to stop bothering me .. 

I just had a nightmare and I need to wake up .. need to Move On 

life is about walking forward right ? not backward ..

these hand no longer hold my hand

wrong lines

Rather than "I want us to meet again "
I better choose " I want u to be on my side later "

for me there's a big difference between those two lines ..
the second line sound more promising .. *(even I know ur not promise me anything ) even I hope for it.
and I know u made your promise already and some else expecting you to keep it real.
should I give up and let u go now.. things are getting out of hand now and I expecting too much from U ? tell me what should I do..!!!

SPACES BETWEEN UR FINGERS

When I first met you, I honestly didn't know you were gonna be this important to me.. they said if sum1 gives you butterflies don't let him go .. that's what I felt first time I saw u .. first time I scent you .. 
You hug me and kiss me in the cheek and I can smell your perfume .. U got me from head to toe from the first hug u gave me.. I can feel how I fit in ur arms. 

U really brighten my days when I'm with you.. 
People said The best relationship is when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are .. 
that's exactly what I do when I'm with you.. Just be myself

I don't depend on people anymore because I'm tired of being disappointed.. but with you I want to give it  all to you ,,
I want to be vulnerable ..  
I want you to be the one I see when I wake up .. and when I sleep . 
I want to depend on you .. 
I want you to be my arms .. my feet .. 

I never been selfish for my entire life .. but this time I want to be selfish .. all I want is you .. no one else .. 
JUST YOU

now I'm trying to keep my heart for not missing U .. once again DISTANCE kill me 

when we apart ..you took a part of me

everyday you asked me >>" am I okay ?? " 

if I answer you .. I'm okay .. its my biggest lie .. 

I  MISS HOW HAPPY  I WAS WITH YOU ... 

how I wish ...

The spaces between your fingers are meant to be filled with mine

*notes to THE ALMIGHTY GOD

ONLY GOD KNOW HOW TO MEND THIS BROKEN HEARTS ..

Once more GOD is being nice to my family ... he gave my family a big strenght to through all the pain and suffering for what just happen.

*Tuhan ga akan kasih cobaan melampaui kekuatan umatnya..
*Cobaan .. musibah ... diambil aja hikmahnya
*Kita lagi diuji.. anggap aja rejeki mau naik
*Ini tanda ... iman kita lagi diuji.. sampai mana kita mampu ngelewatin cobaan.
*Ditipu , dirampok , dibohongin ..harta habis .. ini cobaan belum seberapa.

those line comes from my family .. kalimat kalimat positif keluar untuk menghibur diri sendiri dan keluarga lainnya ... harta hilang itu ga seberapa , allah lagi sayang sama kita makanya dikasih teguran biar lebih meminta pada-NYA..

Tuhaan

I know you are busy with other people sorrow I know there's a lot people out there in pain more than we fell #NOW ... I know what we're doing is wrong it's againts your will and we

REGRET

it ...

but could you please gave us a pain killer to swept away the hurt inside please...