harusx ga gini..............

end year.. arrive... finally one of the most thing i hate almost due to end..
rasax senang klo inget desember mau abis.. new year party lage.. taon baru lage... awal baru lagi..

tp kok rasax msih stuck disni sini aja seeh... still the same question haunted.. why??
KENAPA??

KENAPA SEEH mukax masih disekitarq?
KENAPA SEEH masih inget call aq?
KENAPA SEEH masih nggemesin ?
KENAPA SEEH aq ga bisa lupa kamu?
trus the most important question is..
WHY I'M TOO EASY TO BE ERASED???....jiaaaaah..... rasa sensitif ini membuncah,, jadi penyakit..s***
( MALU w.............)

seharusx... ga gini.. seharusx waktu aku dah picik. ( pencet..) *haiah...tekan tombol OFF sm rasa ini..
seharusx.. prasaaan ini juga hilang.. tapi kok tetep ada seeh.. jadi nanya lagi deh KENAPA??
jadi inget sm note yg dulu.. "COWO MENANG MILIH CEWE MENANG NOLAK"

MAYBE JUST BECOS I'M TO TIRED LOOKING .. THESE STUPID FELLING GROWING STRONGER ...hufh...
OR MAYBE I JUST HATE BEING ALONE...

bukanx

ALONE

yang sendirian,, tapi ngerasa sepi inside....
I DO have a friend ... the kind who cheerish me for life... make me laugh.. even sumtime aq banyak di kerjaiin.. ( jd inget anak SMP ntu,, hahaha..) but still they were the best heal in my messy world...

and back to the WHY question....
i know this stupid question and I might know the answer ..but i still questioning it..

KENAPA COWO LEBIH MILIH CEWE YANG COVERX BAGUS "BUT AN AIRHEAD" ...RATHER THEN CEWE YG BISA BIKIN DIA NYAMAN DAN PUNYA OTAK PULA??? **( unne lang again ) TP COVERX GA KY AURA KASIH GETU............

bereeee.. dah tau seeh jawabx.... tapi tetep nanya... bego..bego.. lungupx

almost a year i spent healing my stupid feeling.. I DID...
but @ the end of the year ... the feeling back haunted me again ... and again....
dan HARUSNYA RASANYA GA KAYA GINI....................

call me telalu naruto..bere... iskompray...ajogombrooh........ what ever... I DONT CARE
this is just my felling.......